Friday, May 1, 2009

Running In Heels

this might be my
means to go out and do
something
I'm somehow going to
yet another chapter
in one place, with two small boxes
I just signed up
for a marathon
that I'm probably not
ready to be training for
Which is why I'm running.
enough to start the real training
to truly understand
and I didn't. Today

it's completely hit me
I won't be returning
seeing the same
feeling the same
I don't think that
there
on Monday morning,
people, frustrations.
I walked away

it's going to take
me a while when I started
the last day
the feeling
the job
at the agency.
23
after three years
I was only - I thought
I knew everything
what it all meant to me.

and
It's funny that
I've grown. Or,
I hope that I have.
a bit of an epiphany
this week I had

I'd like to think that
at the very least,
In the past year, I've lost
the love of my life,
I've left the first job

I suppose some people go
crazy, like buy a yacht
or a Porsche
and I think
I embarked on this entirely new
quarter-life crises (granted,
a year late - procrastinator)
I don't think
I know really who I am.

in the past three years,
I ever had
and have
single life.
this crazy idea that if I train
for this marathon
- find myself in the process,
somewhere out there
on those long Sunday runs

I have exactly
6 weeks to get my ass
into shape
the real me is just waiting
to be found.

But I think I have to try
to look for her.

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